i don't like this feeling T T

JIWA KACAU!!!!!ye...sgt sesuai...mmg tepat dgn keadaan diriku skrg....i don't know why....from last night lg emosi xstabil....myb something wrong with my feeling...bkn aku saje2 mntak perasaan cmni dtg...mmg xmntk tp die dtg sndri....smenanye aku xperlu rase mcm ni..mmg xpyh pun...sbb aku xde pape hak pun tuk rase cmni...tp still xboleh..........since aku tau n aku akn sntiasa ingt bnde tu........tu mmg prangai n kelemahan aku...ssh utk lupe something yg btul2 aku rase mcm betul.........even bnde tu xbtul skalipun..tp yeke xbtul???hmm...nth la...hopefully it's means nothing...saat2 cmni gak la aku perlukan my family...aku xkuat..ye..aku mmg seorg yg lemah....tu lg 1 kelemahan aku....ok la...juz luah something yg xdpt diluahkan....myb it juz my feeling but still can't forget...i miss my family damn much!!!!!i need u right now ('',)...

(editor)

wah!!!tajuk bukan maen lg...hahaha...ce cite ce cite...actually aku sbenanye sgt suke bab2 edit mengedit esemen ni....bg je kt aku..mmg aku suke...n aku agk peka la dlm bab2 kesalahan ni...termasuk format,ejaan n so all la..wah...cm poyo je kn ngaku2 expert...xde la expert sgt pun..tp aku akui la yg aku mmg akn nmpak kesalahan yg kecil pun....myb tu kelebihan kot..haha xpela klbhn dlm mengedit pun kire ok la...
mmg sesuai la ngn tajuk kt atas tu...coz skrg ni mmg da 3 esemen dlm mase 3ari berturut-turut aku edit...mmg agk memakan mase smenanye nk edit esemen ni......memerlukan ketajaman pemerhatian dan kepekaan yg sgt2 la...hahaha...smlm...1 esemen je aku edit dr pas mghrib smpai kol2....mmg lame giler r...xsedar pun..tgk2 jam da kt kul2...huhu.......
actually sgt seronok edit esemen ni...bg aku la...xtau la korg cmne..hehe...tp once bile terlampau bnyk kesalahan dlm satu2 esemen tu..jd bosan gak r..n mula r mcm2 rase ade..nk mrh la mnyumpah la...opss!!!xde la smpai thp maki hamun tu..hehe juz bebel sket2 je....tp part yg seronok gak kdg2 bile tgk kesalahan yg simple pun ade...smpaikn ade certain perkataan2 tu jd lucu...terus lari mksud..hahaha..tp xboleh nk salhkan sape2 kn..coz kdg2 terlepas pandang gak kn kslhn2 spt ejaan..yela da terlampau bnyk nk kene taip...mmg r...bengang gak la kn...aku phm...hahaha
skrg ni pun aku bru je pas edit esemen last tuk sem ni...hehe nk kene submit esok...n da xde esemen yg nk kne edit...eh, lupe...ade lg 1 report nego..tp bkn aku yg jd editor nye..juz wt part masing2 je...hehee..ok la...tu je nk cite mlm ni....choww!!!!!!!

.love.wo aini.aishiteru.saranghae.pyar.

pon..pon...im here..huhu terasa lame tdk update bl0g..dsbbkn oleh kesibukan yg terlampau..haha yeke???yela kot..esemen xsiap2..tp skrg bru la rase sedikit lega..krn hanya tggl 1 esemen lg before cuti...yeayy!!!!!!!xsbr rasanya nk blik kg..huhu..mau ketemu sama ibu bapa n adk2...oppss...my bro jgk...actually trase amat sdih jgk la sbb tau tiket dlm da abes..so,agk tertekan la sdkt+pk esemen lg..huhu nk kne kua g bli tiket lg...tp mlm tu...ade pggilan msuk...agk terkezut la...yela..abg tpn..ingtkn nk ape..huhu n pd mase yg sme bru la trase yg diri ini amat disayangi oleh semua..haha semua ke???myb la kot...arap2 tiada mslh yg dtg untuk balik kg..haha cm nk wt pe je...ttbe trase mcm ank manje..haha boleh xnk rase cmtu???yela sbb my parent ckp kt my bro yg sye xde tiket..n on the spot my bro tpn ajk blik sme2...yeay2!!!sye syg family saye sgt!!!!!!!!!saranghamnida omma,oppa n all.........

^The Color of Love^

For some folks the color of love is
Red ... fiery and hot,
For others the color is
Blue ... placid and calm,
For some it's
Yellow... caring but cautious,
For others it's
Orange ... rich and fruitful,
For some the color is
Lavender... gentle and kind,
For others it's
Purple... sacrificing and giving,
For some it's
Green ... with its go, go, go,
For others the color is
White ... pure and undefiled.
But for me the color is
Rainbow ... Red and Blue,
Yellow and Orange,
Lavender and Purple,
Green and White.
The Rainbow painted by God
is a symbol of forever-love,
And as long as there is
sunshine and rain
there will always be Rainbows,
And as long as there are Rainbows
there will always be
forever-love for you...

::kerinduan::

agak2 pe tjuk entry kali ni??mesti da dpt teka kn??huhu da sah2 la dpt cz tajuk da ade da kt ctu...actually mmg betul la tajuk tu......perasaan yg dtg tiba2 dari sudut hati ini...wah!!!ayt...huhu kpd yg berkenaan...IMY so much!!.......
Kerinduan bukan teman....
Yang mendamai perasaan dikala sepi.......
Rindu bukan teman.......
Yang merawat duka dikala kau berjauhan........
mood jiwang sdh dtg..so sorry la ye...huhu kdg2 perasaan tu dtg dgn sndiri tnpa kita meminta atau dipaksa...
mmg la perasaan xbleh dibuat2.....bile kita rindu org tu ape kite ptot wt eh???mesti lain org lain care nye kn...tp yg pasti perasaan rindu itu mmg ade dlm diri setiap insan....n itu adalah normal k..bkn luar biasa...
Cinta terakhir,,
Kau cinta pertama ku,,
Kau cinta terakhir ku,,
Tiada apa yang bisa,,
Menafikan kasih kita,,
huhu...mmg jiwang abes r........
Kasihku...
Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara...
Bagaimanapun jua....
Aku pelindung dirimu sayang....
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu......

p/s:mood: IMY (",)

16 APRIL 2011

di saat cuace yg panas pd hari ini tbe2 trase nk mengupdate bl0g...huhuhu smenanye juz tkr lagu kt bl0g td..dgr la..cm best je lgu ni...mmg i likee pun...huhu i need u now!!!i juz need u now!!ahaks......bahang2 kesibukan masih trase lg smenanye...ble berakhir???opkoz la akhir bln ni...ngam2 ngn stdy week..mmg terbaekk la.....tp msih mampu rilekk..buat2 mcm org xde keje...hehe ape nk jd la kn...well...tyme2 cmni mne leh fokus wt keje berfaedah!!hahaha pndai la ko...pdhl esok mlm ade lg 1 test n test last utk sem ni before final exam...tp msih still xsntuh pape pun lg...bab 1 pun xbce lg...mmg giler dasyat la kn....
smenanye nk wt mood jiwang tp pk2 blik xkene lak tyme2 panas cmni nk jiwang2!!haha so,,,biarlah hati berbicara sndiri...auwww~gedikss d ctu........hehehe....ok la...smpai cni dlu ye...mls dh nk taip pnjg2...lenguh eden..nt klo ade cte2 hot bru la leh jd pnjg entry blog ni...hehehe kte tggu!!!!zasssssss!!!!

p/s:gudluck kpd sape2 yg da nk final exam...do the best ya :)

-120411-conflict of emotions.........

hari ni 12April...so,ade ape ngn 12April...emmm....hari ni semenanye hari tension n serabut bg aku..nth la...mcm2 bnde nk kne pk..dala keje bnyk....berlambak2........tp xde feel nk wt...tp terpakse jgk wt cz esok da nk kne submit esemen ethics.......hurm,,,,es0k...13April...
*add drop subjek utk sem dpn...
*present office...
*submit ethics...
*test ethics...
ttbe rase kosong....rase cm nk balik rumah sgt2!!!arghhh.......xtahan da aku duk kt cni.....sgt2 lame xblik...perlukan sokongan n dorongan dr family.....i need my mum n dad rite now.....T T

kisah hari ini

kali ni aku juz nk share story ape yg berlaku arini...firstly,arini sbenanye klu ikut schedule ade 3kls...pg kls office,pstu tgh ari kls account n mlm kls ethics...n kls ethics spatutnya ktorg ade test mlm ni.........nk djadikan citer....kls pjbt mmg ade la arini...n dpt brite "gmbira"...mmg sgt "suka" la...hahaha nk tau pe?????group ktorg kne present mggu dpn beb...13/4....tp xksh la kn psl date tu...yg d kisahkan ialah ktorg xwt pape pun lg...even organisasi mne yg nk g interview pun xdpt lg...adoiiyaa!!gilak r... hmm...tp boleh plak dgn sng lenangnye ckp kt lect da dpt tmpt kt pusat ko k...hahaha :p tipu sunat.....lect tnye ble nk g interview??n then dgn slambe badak nye aku jwb mggu dpn......kottttt.......yg part 'kot' tu la jd isu...nk tau why???coz..lect ckp npe ade kot2????kamu xyakin ke???ni la jwpn org yg lemah....wah...mmg kne r aku time tu....dala sume geng2 group xsmpai lg..aku je sorg...masak r...pstu die wt cntoh lak gune pkataan kot2..da sah2 tuju kt aku........sabo jela...huhu....tp still rilek lg....
part ke2.......pg kls akaun......n tggu punye tggu kls cncel..mmg r...tp xmrh pun cz syukur la...leh study ethics kn tok mlm ni...bnyk lg chapter xcover...hehe dgn sng hatinye ke library........smpai kt libry pg drop bku dlu....best jgk men drop buku..hahaha....cm ala2 best student gtu bwk buku bnyk2....knon2 jela...da settle pg la kt ats...study........mmg stress thp cipan la stdy..xleh nk fokus..bnyk bnde pk ni...mmg srabot giler r...xlme pastu msuk 1msg..."test ethics tunda"...wah!!mmg r caye xcaye je...tp last2 mmg cnfirm...time tau tu ade 2bnde pk..1-bagusla tunda cz study pun xabes lg..bace pun cm xmsok pale otak je arini!!2-bengang gak cz nt nk kne study dr awl lg..yela..mne nk ingt da...study utk exaam je....ish2!!!...
part3...on d way nk kua libry pg la check kt checkself..yeke eh??nth la xtau pggil pe bnde alah tu..hehe sje gatal nk cek kot2 ade utang...tp tgk2 lain yg jadinye..ade 1 buku lg aku xpulang..dala due date last anta arini...hmmm..pstu pk punye pk bru ingt yg aku pnjm 6 buku tp pulang 5je..mmg r..pastu xksh la..dgn confident ingt ade kt bilik...da balik dr library..pg cafe...ujan lbat time tu......n kt cafe dpt tau satu bnde....mmg bnyk bnde la jd arini......balik je bilik...ujan mken lbt....pastu masuk lg 1msg.....ckp lak kls mlm ni cncel..pe lg...mmg sronok la...hahahhaa datu ttbe tingat nk cari 1 buku lg..cari punye cari smpai abes dlm kotak aku selongkar xjumpe..mmg pning giler r..ingtkn ilang...pk nye pk..xtau pg mne buku tu..tnye roomate pun xtau..huh!!sudah la...mcm2 da pk ni klu ilang ape ksn nt..trok aku..datu..xlme pastu msuk msg.."buku tu ade kt aku"fuhh!!!lega...rupenye kwn aku pnjm tp lupe nk bg blik..hehe tp ade lg bnde nga pk kt mind ni...emm..tp abaikan je..pastu msg2 ngn adk aku....mmg tenang n hepy la dgr bnyk story2...sgt2 teruja...smpai nk nanges...mmg nges je aku ni....aish!!cengeng tol..huhu pastu tpn mak aku lak...ckp r..cite psl aku kt cni..n dgr cite psl pe jdk kt umah...tau2 jela...lg skali nga ckp tpn nk nges...sebak sgt2!!!lg2 ble mak aku tnye ble nk blik...uish...ayt tu mmg xthn tu......da 2bln lbh xblik mne leh thn nye...homesick thp gaban da ni.....tp sabo jela...hmmm....n cite lg jgk psl bnde yg xnk cte smenanye tp ter keluar.....alang2 da ckp..truskan jela...nseb bek mak aku memahami...sgt2 syg mak aku n my family...mak aku sgt2 memahami....syg+++++.......lastly,trase ringan sket pale otak ni...da xde sgt beban nk kne pk....wpon ade tp da tggl sket da....tQ my mum!!!love u so much!!!!esok leh la pg honeymoon dgn tenang...opss!!honeymoon kah??haha xdela...sbb wajib je ni pg...tp at least leh release tension cz da lame xkua dr bumi sintok ni.......hope blik nt da tenang n leh r cntinue wt keje yg berlambak2 menanti utk disiapkan pasni!!!
-THE END-

duit oh duit!!!!!!!!!

mesti korg da dpt agk da kan pe entry kali ni...huhu da tjuk pun duit kn........meh nyanyi sme2 meh!!!
duit!!duit!!!d mana kau duit???huhu......sebut je psl duit mmg bnyk la yg bermain di benak fikiran kn??lg2 pmpuan...opkoz la SHOPPING!!!!!!!!tp kli ni bkn nk cter sal jdk jutawan...tp nk cite psl poket kering la..huuhu
sem ni mmg sem yg plg cpt kot abes duit...bnyk sgt2 gune duit sem ni....
1.beli buku yg bertimbun2*padahal fotostat je pun..opss!!
2.bayar projek nego.......
3.repair lappy kesayangan....*haish
4.shopping..*tp beli brg keperluan je pun...*isk2!!!
belum lg kire nk bli tiket blik kg...haish!!!manyak susah lor...kesimpulannya..mmg susah la xde duit kn....lg 2bulan ade kt cni...cmne den nk idup klo gni la gayanye...huhuk...so,solution nye terpaksa la eden mntak dkt bank bergerak pama....wlpun xsmpai ati tp TERPAKSA....sekali lg ulang..TERPAKSA k...huhu.....klu xmntak xkn la nk mkn pasir...xpun megi ari2...leh botak pale ni...dgn sedihnye ptg ni nk tpn bank........tu je satu2 jln terakhir yg ade.....jgn mrh ye pama ku cyg!!!anakmu ini lbh dr jimat da ni...

heart+feeling

actually ssh ble ckp psl heart n feeling ni.....mmg ssh..mgalahkan ssh nk amek exam lg...huhu even nk amek exam pun xssh cmni..juz bce n wt revision je note2 lect bg..tp asl ckp bab2 heart n feeling ni mmg ssh nk expect la...ape lg klu hati org..mmg la kn kte xtau...huhuu mne nk tau..hati sndiri pun susah nk faham...
hmmm......first la aku nk tnye r korg sume...how do u know if someone truly honest with u or not????hahha soklan cepu mas ni...cpt2!!!ce cite ce cite....npe aku ckp cmni??cz aku duk sje2 kn pk gk la psl ni...agk ssh r nk dpt jwpn nye tu...yela..mne korg nk tau kn..even klu org tu always ckp im honest wif u pun tu juz their words je kn...in heart mne kte tau kn2???tol x??len la klu kte dpt tgk ape yg tersirat dlm hati seseorg tu kn....mmg sng r lak klu cmtu....xpyh tggu die ckp da tau ape yg tersimpan dlm hati die kn..huhu
so,cni aku juz nk ckp je if someone said die honest wif u don't easily trust k...coz the truth is they r not totally honest wif u....i think la..myb there are something u didn't know about them.......although a little bit but still they r not 100% honest ngn u kn....huhuk juz kte je tau ape yg ade dlm hati kte sndri...tipu la if ade org ckp i know what r u thinking about n what in ur heart right now n what u feel....sometimes mmg r btul klu kte teka...but tu juz kbtln je...not everything we know k...

p/s:ayt mmg lintang pukang dsbbkn mnconteng tyme2 otak nga kritikal...